Mike

You'd have loved that there was a fire your cremation. Jokes about how they didn't shut the doors properly, and you'd giggle :) You'd have cried so much when Adam spoke about that night you chatted at length at the lock-in, and even afterwards. You'd have

I wonder if you had time to think in that moment, before your collapse.

I've known you for many years, but because of our separate interests I'd always had more to do with the other members of the family, though I know now just how important you were to Adam.

You'd have been horrified to find out that this might've been something that didn't have to happen, and you'd have been very sorry to see the shock, sadness and anger at all the faces when they read the letter inviting you to another appointment for aorta abnoramlity, after you'd missed the first one. Your daughter thought there was something wrong, she wasn't right about exactly what it was, but we all wish you were just a little less stubborn and made time to look after yourself.

I hope you told Adam just how much you love him, and how proud you were of him.

What were your last thoughts, I wonder? Did you ever think about this happening? None of us did, and you probably didn't either.